I Miss Home.

looking at my life today, i cannot believe i have spent half of my life living in california. i guess i like to torture myself on a serious level. its just different, and maybe because i was raised in suck an opposite place, i do well here. not sure, though.

right now, its october. and eighty five degrees. thats the day. last night , it was 46. it hasnt rained since clinton was president.

everyone looks the same. no one has basic manners. everyone lies. people are into cars, obnoxious tract homes, and being nosy.

i miss the leaves. hell, i miss TREES. there arent any in so cal. you look at a mountain, and you can see rocks and dirt. its strange. the air is dirty, due to the lack of foliage.

i think today, i will figure exactly where i want to be, and make a plan to get there. even if for some sado masochistic reason, it is here.

also worthy of mentioning- my computer has some trojan on it. not a naked stud on a horse....the virus kind. i have tried everything , every program, and cant get rid of it. i read some instructions on manually removing it, but that worries me. this will be my third laptop in two years..... and i dont want to get a fourth. any geeks reading? let me know.